I’m FINE!
It’s Friday. Yay! Note the sarcasm. I’m not feeling very chipper today I must admit, nothing I can’t handle though. Whatever. It is what it is. Everything is annoying me, breathing is annoying me. But most of all I’m annoyed with myself for feeling this way. Like seriously dude W.T.F. Urgh. Maybe I will just quietly sit here and brood in the dark side for a bit, get over myself and move on. Someone send me some bunnies and sparkly shit and rainbows or something.
I hate to sound like a whiner. And by whiner I don’t mean someone who drinks wine (would you like some cheese with your whine?), I mean someone who complains and moans about everything. I don’t think I do. But you know, one always has to be careful to never cross that line from sharing your neuroses into the land of whingey whiner. The same thought pattern keeps on coming up for me. So I work through it, am fine for a while and them bam it hits me again. So clearly I need to take a critical look at why it keeps on coming up. I am tired of playing the same reel over in my head. Especially since I know it’s stuff that does not form part of my reality. Seriously why did the gods make it so hard to just be? It’s a simple concept and it looks great in theory. But in practice, not so much. It can be hard work.
I do the hard work though because the alternative is just not an option. I have wasted enough time in my life on unnecessary unhappiness. And the power to be and have everything I want lies in my hands. So if I am not happy I have no-one to blame but myself. And I refuse to allow past experiences to impact the now negatively. I do not want to live that way. It’s up to me to cherish every single happy moment I have and not allow the past to darken a single speck of it. Because if you only look at the moment, before you know it, you have a whole string of happy moments. Every little goes a long way to making lots. I think so anyways.
Oh wait there’s someone at the door….
*special delivery*
Fantastic my fuzzy bunnies, sparkly shit and rainbows just arrived. Toodles, have an awesome weekend peeps!
