OK before I do anything let me just get this off my chest. By the time I got to work this morning I felt like crying. I can not do this anymore. I don’t complain about the distances I drive because it’s a choice I made and I do it happily because one cannot put a price on the quality of life we get living where we do. But for me personally I just don’t see the point of sitting in 4 hours of traffic a day, going to an office and doing a job that I am just as capable of doing anywhere I am, just to do it all again tomorrow. What the fuck is the point of that. Companies should really wake the hell up, yes for some jobs and some people it is necessary to physically be where ever the companies offices are, but for lot of people it’s not and that amounts to a colossal a waste of their time. I know that I am not quite ready yet to quit my job and work for myself full time, but this sure as hell is motivation to kick that plan into overdrive. I just can’t anymore. Don’t want to. I’m just frustrated which is bad because I don’t want to make hasty decisions, I need patience.
OK *big breath* now that that is said.
Yesterday rocked. Yes it did. I had such an awesome evening with awesome people and it was so good seeing my person. Girl is happy. Today I need to send off a proposal and call a few people for work for my little business venture. Need to get this ball rolling in a big way. The only way to make a change is to, well…make it. Urgh maybe I should start playing the Lotto just to fast track the process, my odds are just as good as anyone else’s. I totally get why some people just marry anyone or stay in crap relationships for financial security. I personally wouldn’t sell my soul like that, but I get it.
Isn’t it strange how we can be perfectly happy and content and totally not at the same time?! I still feel like crying. And I want hugs. I just need a minute to regroup….
Have a fabulous day everybody. Be the change!
Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality . Wake Up and Live! – Bob Marley