Today I’m going to share something about myself that some of you may find freaky/weird/strange. But that’s ok, I don’t mind being thought of as freaky/weird/strange. I don’t normally share this with people because well it makes them feel uncomfortable and well not many people “believe” in this sort of thing. So to protect myself I just don’t share it plus it doesn’t normally come up in general conversation LOL. But I feel like sharing so I’m gonna. I strongly believe that thoughts or emotions are forms of energy. Which is why the statement “Thoughts become things, choose the good ones” from Mike Dooley makes so much sense to me. And also why I believe that emotional and physical healing can take place energetically using methods such as Reiki and crystals. Whether you believe it or not there are people in the world who really are psychic, there are people who know and sense and see things that cannot be explained by science. This is the world I operate in. The world of the unseen, I believe. It works for me, it’s where I feel comfortable and where I find sense. Yes people, that which makes no sense to some, makes perfect sense to me. I am not psychic, although I have been known to have some inkling of it, but it’s not my gift. I am an empath.
What the heck is an empath you ask? I also didn’t know for a large portion of my life. When I started studying Reiki and threw myself into the world I feel comfortable in, I learned the name to how I’ve always been. An empath is someone who can psychically tune into the emotional experience of another person, place or animal.
Empathy is a psychic ability to sense the emotions of others and often highly aware of the health and state of mind of their loved ones, no matter how physically near or far away the individuals may be.
So in a nutshell I can sense things about people, things they don’t say, things they feel and think and hide inside themselves that they don’t want others to know. I know what they really mean when they say something else. It’s great for when you meet new people and the only times I’ve been “wrong” about people are the times where I ignored my inner knowing. I’m like that with places and animals too. I get extremely distressed if I watch things on TV where others or animals or even the Earth is harmed. To the point where I actually just avoid watching things like that. It took me a long time to learn to control it and to filter out what is my emotions and what are other people’s emotions and I certainly don’t go around intentionally “tuning in” to others. My Loved ones is another story though, I’m highly aware of the emotional state of the people I Love and sometimes I can have a hard time filtering out what is theirs and what is mine and I often “take on” other people’s emotional issues. Can’t help it. So I’ve learned how to filter out the stuff that people are constantly sending out. You can imagine how confusing it can become if you are feeling a million emotions all the time and you don’t know what you are feeling and what is actually someone else’s, so a necessary thing to learn to do. Some people consider it a curse, but I don’t. I think it’s great. When invited to do so I can help others and it helps when I do Reiki for people or card readings. It also took me a long time to learn that I’m not here to fix everybody and everything and when to STFU, a valuable lesson to have learned was that people need to walk their own path and I’m not here to help them with that.
And there you have it. Something about Nicci you did not know. So next time I ask “are you ok?” know it’s because I know you’re not and it’s an open invitation to talk. Toodles!
That’s the bottom line isn’t it. Everybody just wants to feel loved, validated, like they matter. Even the greatest cynic, the baddest of the bad, just wants Love. At the core of everything, underneath all our acting out or the things we do is that inherent need to Love and be Loved. We all want a place where we feel safe and Loved. Sometimes we make less than clever decisions in an effort to feel loved. Sometimes we are offered Love and our fear of being hurt makes us run from it. Sometimes we are just so hurt and guarded that we don’t even recognize Love when it shows up on our doorstep.
But what have we got to loose? Whether you allow yourself to Love or not, whether you open yourself up and allow yourself to be vulnerable or not. At the end of the day if you’re going to get hurt it will hurt the same. Isn’t it better to Love freely, with everything you have, to give all, be open, honest and vulnerable and enjoy every moment? Better than not having loved at all. Isn’t the point of living, living fully each moment. Being fully conscious and present of each moment. Isn’t the point of living doing, experiencing and learning as much as you can in every moment. How can we possibly achieve that if we hold back, if we are guarded…
To me that is the whole point of living. And I can’t live any other way. I feel like I’ve used up enough time just being. Just cruising along. Just letting life happen, being an observer on the outside. I am having the time of my life LIVING. And I will not allow fear or caution hold me back. When I was a kid, I drove my parents nuts, I was always the kid who just blindly ran off, hung upside down on the jungle gym, ran into the swamp. In other words, whatever I did, I did it without holding back, 200%, pedal to the metal, caution to the wind. I tried, sometimes I failed, but I got up tried again, or figured out a better way. And that is the most valuable lesson I’ve learned from my kid self. So I thank my little inner Nicci for this lesson today. And I LIVE!
So if you read my blog, you would know that under the “Things I want to do” tab, point 16 says “Start a community gardening project”. Thanks to my friend and fellow blogger Tanya who planted the seed with this blog post and my most awesome partner David, that item can now be ticked on my list.
Tanya made her blog about giving back and the next day as I was driving to work inspiration struck and I thought that I could maybe do point 16 on my list provided they have space etc. When I got to work and mentioned it to David he immediately jumped on board offering well basically all the resources we would need to get and keep the project going. How awesome!? I spoke to Ikholwa and they are just as thrilled as we are. So in a nutshell we will grow and provide the Home with organic veggies for their use, the older kids will also be involved in an effort to get them out of the Home and involved in a constructive activity. I’m beyond excited!!
So mense, if you would like to donate something towards the project, get involved or just keep up to date on whats happening mosey on down to our Facebook page and “like” it. This is a community effort so we would love if you the community would get involved. If you want any more info or want to get involved, leave a comment or check out the Facebook page under info for my contact details.
Yay! Loving it!
There are some things in the Universe that just can’t be explained. Like exactly how life is formed, or the composition of honey, or the power of Love or prayer. Or where the Unicorns and Fairies live. Or what exactly it is that crows know. Some things just go beyond reason, beyond logic thought, beyond science. We in our infinite smallness can sit here and break our heads trying to explain the explainable. Poets and songwriters write about it. Philosophers philosophize. We can talk, try to reason and find the answers to the mysteries of the Universe but we won’t. Some things are meant to be mysterious, unexplained. Some things are meant to be magical.
Without these things hope would wither and die. It will take the sparkle right out of the eye of lovers and children. The poets and songwriters would have nothing left to write about and the philosophers would have nothing to philosophize about. The mystery and magic in the unexplained is what keeps the world turning, the stars fixed in the galaxy. It is what keeps homo sapiens going. That little spark of hope will keep the blackest heart beating and the power of Love or prayer is what keeps the hopeless hoping. The mystery of the unknown keeps us enchanted with the ordinary, makes us get out of bed each morning and face another day. Keeps us counting our blessings. For even the smallest thing is a miracle. If we look at life through the eye of wonder it is indeed a blessed, miraculous thing.
“A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it”
We never know where life is going to take us. And often despite our best intentions and plans, we end up with something completely different from what we planned. And in the infinite wisdom of the Universe we are gently steered – often accompanied by us kicking and screaming – on the path that is intended. We always get what we need even though sometimes we think it isn’t. I had a plan. I set out on a road. And the Universe guided me to exactly where I needed to be and I am thankful and blessed and stand in absolute awe of it.
We were fearless and brave, thank you for leaping with me.
In the sweet sorrow of parting my Love
Be with yourself in solitude
Sow and reap new experiences
So that when next we meet
We can learn and find one another again
In the sweet familiar
and savour the new joy
that our togetherness brings
So that we may part again to start anew
I can never complain that my life is dull and boring. And that is a good thing. We (the collective) are all going through a period of accelerated growth and learning. For some of us it will feel very uncomfortable and difficult and for some who are open to it less uncomfortable. We live in exciting times people! Things are happening a lot faster and more intensely than what we are used to.
This week I had a humdinger of a week. A good week, although some would say bad. A year, ag 6 months ago I would’ve also thought I’ve had a bad week. In a nutshell in 2 separate and unrelated incidents there was some issues with 2 of the single most important people in my life whom I love really big. But the good news on that is that we spoke, everyone was honest and open and everything was handled with love and compassion and from a space of caring for each other. And all is well and on the road to recovery. So yay! That was awesome! That for me was just mind blowing. I’m used to fighting, and feeling like I don’t have a voice, that I’m not being heard and understood and I felt none of that. I’m used to when I assert myself to carry the consequences. It’s just amazing to me how when people are on the same page what a difference it makes. I didn’t feel angry or frustrated once. So again, I learned a lot and that is always a good thing. I love you two people and thank you for being so awesome and part of my life (you know who you are).
My car, my poor Imelda, is also broken *sad face* it’s technical so I won’t go into detail but it’s bad. She’s in ICU. But it’s all good I guess. At least I wasn’t in the middle of nowhere when it broke and a very handsome charming knight came to my rescue. So all good again. Imelda is still in surgery, I don’t know when she will be out of hospital yet, or what this little soiree is going to cost me. But again, the Universe provides, I’m getting a little something, something back from SARS.
Oh before I forget!! I also submitted the short story I wrote to a magazine for publication. Very excited about that. Not sure of course if they will use it/publish it. But I will certainly keep you all updated.
It was an awesome week!
When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. ~ Paulo Coelho