Interview

>OK so I went for an interview today, I almost cancelled it (yes I know it’s counter productive) but I soldiered on.  It was at an agency for a really nice position at a big corporate.  I feel better now that I went.  Will hear next week sometime about the interview with the actual group.  So lets see..

My friend Laura has another blog she also runs called Female2Female and after my very depressing woe is me post from yesterday suggested that I write a weekly article for the site which I have agreed to do.  You know what they say about idleness being the devils ear cushion and all that!  So I am excited to start with that and GYM yay!!  I think we will start gym next week sometime, I can’t wait to get back into exercising again, I did zilch over the December holidays and I feel totally yuck!  I haven’t touched my pole either *sobs* luckily that will be remedied tonight when my other friend Mrs Rautenbach comes over for a chat/pole session!

I feel better today thank you – I guess it helps being Friday and all LOL!

Have a good one peeps!

Drifting

>And I don’t mean drifting like in those guys with their fast cars around corners.

I am in earnest looking for other employment this year and as much as I want to leave and feel utterly un-enthusiastic about my current work situation.  I feel the same when I browse through the loads of jobs on job sites.  I am really struggling to get excited and motivated about doing the same thing at another company.  I am just a little bit resentful that I can’t also do something that I love.

It would be easy if I actually could find a compromise and find something that I love doing that isn’t exactly what I want to be doing.  What I really want to do is not possible (don’t have the capital), the other thing I want to do I need a Masters degree and study for 7 years so that is also not going to happen.  And the other other thing I want to do I also need to study for about 2 years which is also not going to happen, so I have to be happy (as always) with 2nd best and be stuck with doing meaningless admin jobs the same thing day in and day out  yay for me.

I really feel like I’m just drifting around, like there is no meaning to what I do, every day is the same, treading water and never getting anywhere.  And apparently I’m not as nice as I thought I was I apparently project a little bit of a not nice attitude – who knew!  I’m feeling a bit sad about this today I will just have to accept that this is it, and be happy with never quite getting what I want and being happy with below average.

Soldier on!